My Top 3

 Have you ever noticed that the closer an object gets to the light, the more clearly you can see that object (obvious, huh?) The more that you are in the light, the more dirt that is exposed. The closer you get to Jesus, the more of yourself is seen and in my case, it is not pretty! Here are my top three issues that I seem to have always struggled with.

 #1- Self Worth

 I need people to admire me. I need people to respect me, to know how hard I work and that I am really somebody. I need the admiration from others in order to feel good about myself and to feel like I have value. I struggle with this and I have since I was young. I am seeing more and more of this in me, but I also realize who I am in Christ. I overwork and I know why I do. I need to be successful. It’s a constant struggle.

 #2- Anger

 I tend to get angry when I feel rejected or undervalued. (See #1) I get angry when someone makes me feel stupid, or states “that was stupid”, or when I do something that I feel is stupid. I get angry when I feel like I am losing an argument or when the other person is not seeing it the way that I do. I get angry when I feel that others do not care what I am passionate about. I have learned that anger says “you owe me, you took something from me”. I know the right answer, I just seem to get angry anyway.

 #3- Worry

 Do you want to know what I worry about the most? The fear that I am not going to be succesful; the church is not going to grow; no one is going to get saved; people will get mad and leave; I’m going to be average; I am never going to reach my God – given potential; I am going to be a failure.

 I’m sure you are thinking, “Wow, you are really messed up!” I know! But so are you. James 5:16 says, “Confess your sins to one another and you will be healed.” I am not a priest, but I am your brother, so go ahead and confess away. I am listening and will certainly be praying.

 What are your top 3?

One thought on “My Top 3

  1. Worrier is #1 for me! I worry about my kids, I worry about my family, I worry about my husband and his health… I worry the cancer may come back. I worry I am not being a good enough wife, mother, friend, daughter or Christian. I worry I am not pleasing others enough. This is one of my biggest struggles.
    #2: I have a quick fuse… I use to not be this way. I use to let things slide off my shoulders quickly. But the older I get it only takes a small minor detail and I am in a bad mood all of the sudden. I tend to let others problems effect my mood. Not proud of this and working hard to try and change it!
    #3: I use to be a very positive person… use to see such good in everything. I let my worries and short fuse steal my joy too many times. I’m quick to feel sorry for myself for what problems we are having… atleast until God points it out to me that I am beyond blessed and my problems are so minor sometimes compared to others. I always need Him to point this out to me… I want to learn to be quick to count my blessings before my burdens.
    These are my struggles.. or faults.. I am working on changing mostly the latter two… I would love to learn to fix the first as well. I know we aren’t suppose to “worry” but it is much easier to say, “Give it to God” then to actually do it. 🙂

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